Thursday, June 15, 2006

Anxiety

I have been struggling with deep anxiety for the past I don't know how many days. My prayers are all about unburdening my anxious heart and letting go of those things that I have no control over. I know to cast my cares on God, but am surprised that I have to do it every morning in such a dramatic way. Perhaps I should not consider my own weakness so strange. Maybe it means that I am peeling away layers of self-sufficiency and learning to trust more. Certainly as the world seems to whirl out of control with natural disasters and terrorism and threats of pandemics, I have nowhere to go but to the rock that is higher than I. As I watch my children grow and face the challenges that are in front of them, young as they are, I can only grow in prayer or fall back in worry.

Help me, Lord, to trust in You, for everything. Calm my anxious thoughts and my worried soul.

Psalm 121

A song of ascents.
1 I lift up my eyes to the hills—
where does my help come from?

2 My help comes from the LORD,
the Maker of heaven and earth.

3 He will not let your foot slip—
he who watches over you will not slumber;

4 indeed, he who watches over Israel
will neither slumber nor sleep.

5 The LORD watches over you—
the LORD is your shade at your right hand;

6 the sun will not harm you by day,
nor the moon by night.

7 The LORD will keep you from all harm—
he will watch over your life;

8 the LORD will watch over your coming and going
both now and forevermore.

Micah Girl

4 Comments:

Anonymous sunny said...

thank you so much for writing about this. I have been having anxious thoughts for a few days..and yesterday it was all about "help!" prayers.

Good to know I'm not the only one there prays about these anxious thoughts daily.

I like your thought about learning to trust and peel away the layers of self-sufficiency. It's true for me and it leaves me out of my comfort zone and feeling vulnerable.

11:19 AM  
Anonymous sunny said...

oops...

"Good to know I'm not the only one WHO prays about these anxious thoughts daily."

(sheesh...I'm not perfect though I often try to be....turns out imperfect is good enough) :)

11:22 AM  
Blogger Sally said...

that is my favourite psalm- and for the reasons you give it reminds us to look to God- we can only truly do that when we aren't relying upon ourselves but on him.

3:59 PM  
Blogger LutheranChik said...

That Psalm is one of my favorites, and I'm glad that it's included in my usual cycle of daily Psalms.

It's perfectly natural to be anxious and to feel anxious about being anxious...it's all a part of the transparency that I believe God honors in us when we let ourselves acknowledge our weakness and vulnerability. That's part of the theology of the Cross.

1:15 PM  

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